Time for your monthly TMI!

I got my period today, as you can probably guess :)

Learned something new and cool about my cloth pads. ( Here's the TMI )

( Pads I've used this month )

So, I'm sick. Ish. Sickish.

Was fine most of the day, just coughing, got a sore throat midway through - and then, bam - I stand up and find myself very dizzy. Both lightheaded and spinny dizzy. Very scary when you have a good 45 minutes before your ride shows up, and you're watching her kid (so you can't go home early), and it's pouring rain and you're not dressed for it at all (because you have a ride!).

It's a sinus thing, I know it. I used to feel this way all the time in high school, which explains some of my poor performance. It's weird, though, because recently I also felt another thing I haven't felt in a few years - random anxiety out of nowhere. It took me ages to work out that it was internal instead of external! I would drive myself into a dithering panic over why I felt so anxious and stressed, and make real problems for myself that way, which only, of course, made it worse. But I've worked it out - it's seasonal. Once I worked that out, I was able to ignore it, which made it mostly go away as far as I'm concerned, so it really surprised me when it happened again a few days ago.

Anyway, as it happened, another kid we love and adore (I'll call him P because I'm about to say something marginally sensitive about him) showed up with both his parents, so I had help watching the three I was watching, which was great.

The other parents and I got to talking about school, and their kid. He's turning five this month, and he's in pre-k, and he's struggling. Well, I have some idea why, and I think they know too if they look - he's a little immature. (Well, of course he is, he's four, but I mean he's a little immature compared to most kids his age I know.)

( In which I learn to shut up about things when people don't want to talk about them )

At any rate, I can't convince them I'm right, even though I do think they're coming at this from the wrong angle. I can only sit and hope everything turns out all right in 13 years, and not bring it up again unless they do more than bring it up, but ask me for my opinion. I might make it a "not to be spoken of" topic with them. I hate doing that, I do, but you know I tend to go on and on!

To make myself clear (I really should never post while congested and drugged up on midol)....

I don't want P's parents to do what I think is right just because I think it's right. I mean, I *do* think I'm right, but that's what people usually think about their opinions, isn't it? But I could be wrong - indeed, because his parents disagree with me so basically on this, I really *hope* I'm wrong, that next year goes wonderfully, that his entire school career rocks. I mean, who wouldn't want that?

I'm just frustrated that we disagree on something so basic, because it makes it very hard to talk about it. There's not likely to be a way to talk about this whole area of their kid and my nieces, because I don't know a good way to say my view without saying as well "And I'm totally right", and that's not very polite, and it's certainly not going to change their minds.

And I do disagree with them. I think they're about to well-meaningly make a mistake, and I so want to stop that, but with that basic disconnect, they're not likely to listen even if it does come up.

It's very annoying.

What I want to do, and what I ought to do are so separated, it's just... ugh. But since what I want to do wouldn't work anyway, I'm stuck with what I ought to do, aren't I?

I don't think I like speaking responsibly. It's just so much easier to yell a lot, even if it never works.

Edit: And yes, I'm aware these two posts make me sound petulant, but if I can't be honest about my deep down motivations here, that's a bit of a problem.

Well, I didn't get permission, but it's an open post, so I'll crosspost anyway

Apparently Cat Chant was written to be on the spectrum. Or maybe DWJ retconned that in, because I don't know how much she's likely to have known about not-so-stereotypical autism when she wrote the first books a few decades ago. But now he's supposed to have always been on the spectrum.

I gotta say, I don't really see it, except that he's a little obtuse at times, as in ( spoiler )

, but then - who would notice that?

I'll re-read the books though with that in mind. I'm really posting this to giggle a little at how one commenter says he's totally not aspie, but maybe HFA, and another commenter says he's totally not autistic, but maybe aspie.

I mean, I'm high on midol and sinus pain - this sort of thing strikes me as terribly funny :)

Oh, and there's an article on the most recent scandal by That Organization. If you're not a member, your comments will be screened.