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It must be an off season for me.
Jul. 23rd, 2006 01:03 am
I'm finding it hard to pay too much attention to the situation in the mideast, for example. Probably because the inner cynic in me is going 'Gee, weren't they doing this when I was a kid? Why bother caring? They'll just keep on doing it until they get bored or everybody dies or both', which is more apathy than righteous fury.
And this week everybody, of course, is posting about racism and related issues, and I've been reading the posts, but... they're not drawing me in. I'm not thinking much of them past when I read them. And they're good posts.
It's just hard to feel connected to any of this right now. It's a very weird feeling, too, but not weird enough that I'm bothering to find out how to fix it.
I'd be worried about it, I *am* worried about it, but only in this vaguely apathetic fashion. Which in and of itself should be worrying, but isn't.
So, I don't know. This is me, being apathetic. About, apparently, everything that matters in the greater context. (No, issues regarding other people's manners and cleanliness in public aren't all that important in the grand scheme of things.)
I'm kinda freaked out. Except, you know, I'm not.
At any rate, I don't think it's healthy for me to be so completely uninterested in world events, so I'm going to make a concerted effort to pay more attention. This, of course, will make me miserable with worry over the state of the world, but in general, I do feel better when I know things. And this newfangled apathy thing? It feels weird. Even when I'm not posting about the state of the world because it's depressing, I still know, and now I don't think I do.
And this week everybody, of course, is posting about racism and related issues, and I've been reading the posts, but... they're not drawing me in. I'm not thinking much of them past when I read them. And they're good posts.
It's just hard to feel connected to any of this right now. It's a very weird feeling, too, but not weird enough that I'm bothering to find out how to fix it.
I'd be worried about it, I *am* worried about it, but only in this vaguely apathetic fashion. Which in and of itself should be worrying, but isn't.
So, I don't know. This is me, being apathetic. About, apparently, everything that matters in the greater context. (No, issues regarding other people's manners and cleanliness in public aren't all that important in the grand scheme of things.)
I'm kinda freaked out. Except, you know, I'm not.
At any rate, I don't think it's healthy for me to be so completely uninterested in world events, so I'm going to make a concerted effort to pay more attention. This, of course, will make me miserable with worry over the state of the world, but in general, I do feel better when I know things. And this newfangled apathy thing? It feels weird. Even when I'm not posting about the state of the world because it's depressing, I still know, and now I don't think I do.
