It must be an off season for me.

[conuly]

I'm finding it hard to pay too much attention to the situation in the mideast, for example. Probably because the inner cynic in me is going 'Gee, weren't they doing this when I was a kid? Why bother caring? They'll just keep on doing it until they get bored or everybody dies or both', which is more apathy than righteous fury.

And this week everybody, of course, is posting about racism and related issues, and I've been reading the posts, but... they're not drawing me in. I'm not thinking much of them past when I read them. And they're good posts.

It's just hard to feel connected to any of this right now. It's a very weird feeling, too, but not weird enough that I'm bothering to find out how to fix it.

I'd be worried about it, I *am* worried about it, but only in this vaguely apathetic fashion. Which in and of itself should be worrying, but isn't.

So, I don't know. This is me, being apathetic. About, apparently, everything that matters in the greater context. (No, issues regarding other people's manners and cleanliness in public aren't all that important in the grand scheme of things.)

I'm kinda freaked out. Except, you know, I'm not.

At any rate, I don't think it's healthy for me to be so completely uninterested in world events, so I'm going to make a concerted effort to pay more attention. This, of course, will make me miserable with worry over the state of the world, but in general, I do feel better when I know things. And this newfangled apathy thing? It feels weird. Even when I'm not posting about the state of the world because it's depressing, I still know, and now I don't think I do.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

From my temporary seat here in Jerusalem, I wish you would spend more thought on it.

[conuly]

I could stand to, I'm sure.

Of course, on the other hand, my thinking about the situation in Jerusalem is going to help you how, exactly?

Is there anything I could actually, feasibly do to help? You name it, I'll consider it.

[fjorab-teke.livejournal.com]

I'm feeling kind-of the same way, perhaps: that disjointed, apathetic feeling from just having had too much of it and feeling that it's not going to change. That USA versus the entire middle-east war has lasted far longer than anyone had planned and been so disastrous, and I'm rather resigned now about Bush's lies and being anxious about it that I've exhausted the issues and simply grown tired of it all. I care, but I "don't."

[brownkitty.livejournal.com]

I'd try and take a break from things for a couple of days but that's just me. I don't know if you are like this, but sometimes I tend to think about something until I drop, and basically chase my own tail over it until I'm no good to anyone including myself.

[cmarie14.livejournal.com]

I think it must come with getting older and realizing that there is often very little you can do against the goverments/organizations of the world...you just get tired of fighting...I know exactly how you feel.

[gingembre.livejournal.com]

I care, but I am focused on the most important things I *can* change: my own family. Therefore, I try to put my energy into that and not spend hours agonizing over something I can do nothing about. I'm always willing to take a concrete action though when one is available! But feeling useless only upsets me even more, and then what has been achieved but my unhappiness, and likely my making my loved ones unhappy as a byproduct?

[(Anonymous)]

From my temporary seat here in Jerusalem, I wish you would spend more thought on it.

[conuly]

I could stand to, I'm sure.

Of course, on the other hand, my thinking about the situation in Jerusalem is going to help you how, exactly?

Is there anything I could actually, feasibly do to help? You name it, I'll consider it.

[fjorab-teke.livejournal.com]

I'm feeling kind-of the same way, perhaps: that disjointed, apathetic feeling from just having had too much of it and feeling that it's not going to change. That USA versus the entire middle-east war has lasted far longer than anyone had planned and been so disastrous, and I'm rather resigned now about Bush's lies and being anxious about it that I've exhausted the issues and simply grown tired of it all. I care, but I "don't."

[brownkitty.livejournal.com]

I'd try and take a break from things for a couple of days but that's just me. I don't know if you are like this, but sometimes I tend to think about something until I drop, and basically chase my own tail over it until I'm no good to anyone including myself.

[(Anonymous)]

I think it must come with getting older and realizing that there is often very little you can do against the goverments/organizations of the world...you just get tired of fighting...I know exactly how you feel.

[gingembre.livejournal.com]

I care, but I am focused on the most important things I *can* change: my own family. Therefore, I try to put my energy into that and not spend hours agonizing over something I can do nothing about. I'm always willing to take a concrete action though when one is available! But feeling useless only upsets me even more, and then what has been achieved but my unhappiness, and likely my making my loved ones unhappy as a byproduct?