When I was little, I heard people insulting each other with the word gay.

[conuly]

Well, we all heard it, didn't we? I didn't get it, though. I thought that they meant "happy". I was *really* out of touch with mainstream society at that age, and read a lot of old books :) When I finally, finally figured out what they meant, I still didn't get it. I mean, why would anybody even care?

I still think that. And it irks me. I wish I could say I'm nice and tolerant and all, but that's just not true. I'm not nice, or tolerant, or open-minded, or any of it. I just don't care. Sure, I want you to be happy, in a vague sense, and if I know you I actually *do* want you to be happy - but I'm not being tolerant of you! I really don't care what you do! I don't care what you believe, either, so long as you aren't harming me, or unhappy with it. It'd be great to be able to talk about how wonderfully open-minded I am about people's beliefs, but I can't do that because I just don't care! I'm vaguely interested in religion, it's an off-and-on passion of mine (admittedly, most of this passion died when I realized that the Greek and Norse gods probably didn't exist....), but... yeah, not caring. So, I don't care who you fuck, and I don't care how you pray, and I don't especially care what you eat... I wish there was something I *did* care about, just so I could be tolerant.

*sighs*

*giggles*

Pretty silly rantling, huh? Lub ya all dearly. *hugs everyone and hands out kittens*

Comments

[athanata.livejournal.com]

i had never heard that expression till i got to college. i think it was my first or second day and the guy in the room next to me said "that's so gay!" i was like "WTF!? What kind of thing to say is that!?"

[conuly]

Just going down the list?

And you are *so* lucky. Even in elementary school, they know those stupid insults.