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conuly
I have problems. Seriously, I do.
But I don't ever like mentioning them, ever, because I always feel like I'm whining or exaggerating.
Take the idea of faceblindess. I don't think I'm faceblind. I don't consider myself faceblind. And yet, there's a number of incidents which only make sense if I say I'm faceblind. Most notoriously, there's the time I was about to tell a man with a cute baby "my niece has that same outfit" when I realized that it *was* my niece and brother-in-law, but trust me when I say this incident is not alone in my memory.
Or there's my hearing. I have very good hearing. My hearing is probably better than yours. I can hear the train doors close from several blocks away. But I can't be in a crowded room and follow a conversation. I never used to mention this to people, and just sat through "group work" where I either did nothing or did everything because it was easier than trying to listen to people talking. I still don't like mentioning it to people, because it's just "Well, my hearing isn't bad, exactly, but it's hard for me sometimes, but not all the time, and... um...."
Riiiiight.
Well, this has been my melodramatic post for the day. Djusk' a!
But I don't ever like mentioning them, ever, because I always feel like I'm whining or exaggerating.
Take the idea of faceblindess. I don't think I'm faceblind. I don't consider myself faceblind. And yet, there's a number of incidents which only make sense if I say I'm faceblind. Most notoriously, there's the time I was about to tell a man with a cute baby "my niece has that same outfit" when I realized that it *was* my niece and brother-in-law, but trust me when I say this incident is not alone in my memory.
Or there's my hearing. I have very good hearing. My hearing is probably better than yours. I can hear the train doors close from several blocks away. But I can't be in a crowded room and follow a conversation. I never used to mention this to people, and just sat through "group work" where I either did nothing or did everything because it was easier than trying to listen to people talking. I still don't like mentioning it to people, because it's just "Well, my hearing isn't bad, exactly, but it's hard for me sometimes, but not all the time, and... um...."
Riiiiight.
Well, this has been my melodramatic post for the day. Djusk' a!
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Date: 2005-02-10 05:55 am (UTC)I find it really difficult to filter noises. Like, in a crowded room, I cannot make the conversation I want to listen to louder than the environment, and it all juts becomes white noise.
This can result in either: a) me becoming depressed and withdrawn and sulky or b) me becoming hyperactive and shouty in an attempt to drown out the noise. It depends on which way I'm swinging at the moment.
And I hate it. It's starting to interfere with my life.
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Date: 2005-02-10 08:48 am (UTC)Yes! I'm normally rather soft-spoken, but sometimes in crowded places-- well, when I don't go into an utter meltdown from sensory overload-- I end up yelling and don't even notice that I'm doing it. It's just that I can barely hear myself thinking, much less speaking!