*sighs* I've been thinking...
Nov. 20th, 2003 04:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
conuly
I really need to get diagnosed. Among other things, I'd be able to shut Michael and Aaron up from saying "oh, you're OCD, really, I know, I took Abnormal Psych..." *rolls her eyes*...
But seriously... I think it would be useful, if nothing else. I've been having some serious issues lately, more trouble concentrating, more sensory problems, and I can't get rid of that annoying stutter when I speak to people I don't know very well. I never used to stutter, this is a very recent thing (within the past 6 years), and I don't like it.
As I see it, a diagnosis would do a few things.
1. I could whip it out and not have to do stupid groupwork. I hate groupwork. I'm not good at it. I never understand the other people, and I can't hear them anyway over the sound of the rest of the groups. But, theoretically, I could claim a desperate need for accomodations and do all such groupwork alone. At any rate, it's a possibility.
2. Since that is, I think, a large factor in my impending doom in American Gov, I might actually be able to get them to drop the grade. I know other people who have done similar things, and had it stricken from their transcript. The problem with this, though, is that AS is not an excuse. Even when it is. It's just not.
3. I might also, if I'm really good, be able to come in early for my Art History final and avoid the not being able to take the test properly due to noise and bad seating. Or come in late and get in extra studying, whatever ;)
4. I'm told by Lizziey that AS is covered by SSI. Not sure if that's true or not, but worth looking into.
Problems with my plan:
1. If it's not covered by insurance, I can't do it. I already checked at the disabilities office :(
2. I have no idea if this is covered or not.
3. This would mean talking to a whole lot of people. Do I want to do that? Psychologist I don't know. Receptionist I don't know. Schoolofficialpeople I don't know. I don't know about all this.
4. Chances are, I wouldn't be able to drag Jenn along, as she'd refuse. Meanie.
5. Some people don't believe me when I tell them about AS. These are often the same people who tell me to my face that something I did was "funny" or "weird". But, of course, "nobody is normal".
Of course, those people don't see me 1. failing classes because I'm scared to attend 2. having failed classes because, though I knew the work, I hadn't the least idea how to do the work, as in how to do homework 3. not being able to wear certain clothes because I can't not notice them when I wear them 4. not being able to use perfumed detergents because they're greasy and smell weird on clothes 5. similarly, going out of my way to buy Sun and Earth dishwashing soap because dishes shouldn't be perfumed 6. hearing the TV all the way across the house 7. hearing the cd player or computer when they're plugged in but not on 8. having to call up Jenn to find out how to clean the house 9. getting lost in MIDTOWN MANHATTAN, despite the grid system and the fact that I've been there before (I spent a full term going around the library on campus, and it took me a full term before I realized that the side of the library was the same building as the front of the library) 10. (similarly, I've had classes one after the other with the same people, and they looked like different people to me)
and so on. But I still fear that I might embarass myself if they happen to be right. So again, I don't know what to do. Helphelp?
But seriously... I think it would be useful, if nothing else. I've been having some serious issues lately, more trouble concentrating, more sensory problems, and I can't get rid of that annoying stutter when I speak to people I don't know very well. I never used to stutter, this is a very recent thing (within the past 6 years), and I don't like it.
As I see it, a diagnosis would do a few things.
1. I could whip it out and not have to do stupid groupwork. I hate groupwork. I'm not good at it. I never understand the other people, and I can't hear them anyway over the sound of the rest of the groups. But, theoretically, I could claim a desperate need for accomodations and do all such groupwork alone. At any rate, it's a possibility.
2. Since that is, I think, a large factor in my impending doom in American Gov, I might actually be able to get them to drop the grade. I know other people who have done similar things, and had it stricken from their transcript. The problem with this, though, is that AS is not an excuse. Even when it is. It's just not.
3. I might also, if I'm really good, be able to come in early for my Art History final and avoid the not being able to take the test properly due to noise and bad seating. Or come in late and get in extra studying, whatever ;)
4. I'm told by Lizziey that AS is covered by SSI. Not sure if that's true or not, but worth looking into.
Problems with my plan:
1. If it's not covered by insurance, I can't do it. I already checked at the disabilities office :(
2. I have no idea if this is covered or not.
3. This would mean talking to a whole lot of people. Do I want to do that? Psychologist I don't know. Receptionist I don't know. Schoolofficialpeople I don't know. I don't know about all this.
5. Some people don't believe me when I tell them about AS. These are often the same people who tell me to my face that something I did was "funny" or "weird". But, of course, "nobody is normal".
Of course, those people don't see me 1. failing classes because I'm scared to attend 2. having failed classes because, though I knew the work, I hadn't the least idea how to do the work, as in how to do homework 3. not being able to wear certain clothes because I can't not notice them when I wear them 4. not being able to use perfumed detergents because they're greasy and smell weird on clothes 5. similarly, going out of my way to buy Sun and Earth dishwashing soap because dishes shouldn't be perfumed 6. hearing the TV all the way across the house 7. hearing the cd player or computer when they're plugged in but not on 8. having to call up Jenn to find out how to clean the house 9. getting lost in MIDTOWN MANHATTAN, despite the grid system and the fact that I've been there before (I spent a full term going around the library on campus, and it took me a full term before I realized that the side of the library was the same building as the front of the library) 10. (similarly, I've had classes one after the other with the same people, and they looked like different people to me)
and so on. But I still fear that I might embarass myself if they happen to be right. So again, I don't know what to do. Helphelp?
