conuly

Well, I didn't have anyone who viewed their job as to watch me. I mean, I did somewhat, but it was more in a keep her alive sort of way. And there were other things to do. I was a remarkably good child. I don't know why. But I was to the point of horrible stupidity. I wouldn't complain if I was hungry, because I didn't want to bother anyone. I'm not entirely sure why I was like this. I just didn't feel entitled to make other peopel take care of my needs, which is great in an adult, but problematic in a toddler/child who cannot take care of her own needs yet. So, I just tried not to mention them and make do. This meant that my caretakers often didn't realize what my needs were. For example, my parents always tried to make sure we were sufficiently fed. But I couldn't eat fast enough to take in enough food. But everyone would want to be finished and move on, so I'd say I was done evne though I was still hungry. And I didn't bother them between meals, just waited. And so they began to think I needed less food, and so gave me less, and I didn't ask for more. This led to all sorts of problems without them even doing anything wrong. I honestly don't know why I was so insistent about not troubling others. I've become lesso as I've gotten older.